…and I was happy again. But then came these three dreams and my mind got sad and a bit angry and passionate and cold, at first one at a time and then all at once. Then my body joined in with pain and then surrendered and now I am collapsing. Even all the prety flowers could not heal me. But I won’t ask him. Not until I am sure, the reaction will be all his and not some prepared thousand times discussed shit. Although why does this even matter. Is this something he send me via the Carma mail career? Hope this won’t force me into changing my plans for the rest of the week. And I thought that this will be one whole perfect week, well…
I would love you to take me… Although I don’t need you around so much, I still love you, but somehow it is changing. I feel like I want to be alone and with you only sometimes, like I need some space. And I don’t like it, because I am afraid, that the same like with him will happen.. You must not force me, or I will get scared like a little doe and will run away. But I love you so I will find a way, I want you to be mine and I want to be yours my dear.
Love you like nothing in this world.
Love you more and more every day.